stoked for runnin'

sooo much going on...and not enough time. life is good!
i am planning my races for the year! wow! I am getting so excited! that is all i can really say! Yay for running!
more to report at another time, but i just don't have time or the organization at the moment to put everything down on here! just know that life is good! I hope it is the same for all my loved ones! whohooo!
xoxo

Went to the store, sat on Santa's lap. Asked him to bring my friends all kinds of crap.

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He said, "all you need is to write them a song."
Now you haven't heard it yet, so don't try to sing along.
So don't sing along.
Monica, Monica, have a happy Hanukkah.
Saw Santa Claus, he said hello to Ross.
And please tell Joey Christmas will be snowy.
And Rachel and Chandler, [mumbles some nonsense that rhymes with "Chandler"].
Happy holidays everybody!

I love Phoebe on friends!!!

anyway so the last few days have been great, just sort of enjoying my time off, because once we go to barbados i wont have much time for myself there. ... but i will be in barbados so don't worry there is no complaining! I got to do some Christmas shopping it was great! Then i got to be santa's helper last night and put out all the gifts. The boys woke up and had christmas morning today because we can't possibly haul all the gifts to barbados and celebrate there! I unfortunatly slept through their Christmas morning, which I am bummed out about, but i was up late making Kristen and Andriy's gift. Kristen got me a really great gift, its fun to get presents! lol. The kids got some of the coolest stuff! we are bring a lot with us to barbados so it will be fun to have new toys to play with while we are there! We leave in the morning so I am making this short and sweet. I just wanted to upload a few pictures of their tree, because it is beautiful and then tell all of my family and friends that I love them dearly and I hope you all have an absolutly wonderful Christmas!!
xoxo

here is the link!

just pics

night out with jamie and missy! some are redoos, but whatever. click here.

in milan and windsor for christmas. click here.

my cousin's birthday the day i left seattle for london. click here.

Merry Christmas!

Life is good, sunshine and snowflakes

So I think my homesickness ended yesterday. Well first I was actually super sick, like sick out of my mind sick on Tuesday and Wednesday and I woke up yesterday feeling all brand new, like a shiny little penny! Seriously! I woke up and not only was it a new day, it felt like everything was back to calm, you know that calm I wrote about like a month ago, or more...it had seemingly faded with coming back to London, which I think had a lot to do with that homesickness and that long distance twitterpation (which has not subsided, fortunately or unfortunately, however you want to look at it) Anyway, I feel that calm again. It is unbelievably nice to have. Running has been awesome, again though my shoes are taking way longer than I wanted them to break in. My London Marathon is in April and I start training on the 1st of February so....things need to happen faster, and unfortunately I can't rush it because I can feel shin splints from pushing to hard already! grr. damn me and my lack of patience...and p.s. my uncle Adam wrote something on his blog about patience...and seriously, I agree....
"Here's something I've really been considering.
It's often said 'patience is a virtue,' and I think I'm a pretty patient person. What I'm wondering about lately is, what am I being patient for? What is so virtuous that my patience is warranted? I don't have anything particular in mind, just in general what and why am I waiting? Am I missing something while I'm being patient? Just a thought really... "

well I do agree, I don't agree that I am a patient person...but during my moments of patience well I don't think it all works out, I am better off making it happen. Maybe the virtue of patience is for kids and for adults who always fear that if they force something it won't work out the way they wanted it to, or that if they force it, it won't be the way things were intended (as if by some other power, i mean)...hmm...so I say forget being patient...lets all just be do-ers not wait-and-see-ers. That is my plan. :o) Again, like my Uncle, I don't have something particular in mind, just in general I will make sure to be even more of a do-er than a wait-and-see-er. anyway that was a total A.D.D. moment but I am loaded with those and I don't really mind! I am also loading some pics of Missy and Jamie and I at Chatt's last weekend...so much fun!









I can't believe that they are going back to the States on Wednesday, well back for missy, jamie is just joining here! they are so cute in love, ya know the kind that makes you want to vomit a little in your mouth, haha. I dont know how I feel about all that anymore, a little scared I suppose, and rightfully so. but I like my new approach, its smarter and it takes care of me first...something I had forgotten how much I love doing! It is nice to see the world at my pace and from my perspective alone. I have no fears because everything, and I mean everything is and will continue to work the way I want it to, because i am putting the ball in motion and I don't have to worry about anyone else's affect on it. It has to be one of my better characteristics, the one where I take care of myself, the one that shows just how confident I am. did i mention in an earlier blog...i dont know but I seem to be attracted to people who "need fixing" not that they are actually broken, but there is something about them that I would like to be fixed to help them along and then I bring myself down trying to do so....well i have had enough of that, and I finally see that in myself so I think I can steer clear...i have already met someone that made me think this way and I hope well for him, and would love to be friends but all other reasons aside, i was proud that I recognized what it was that made it absolutly impossible to let anything happen. Good feeling to know everything about yourself. Then there is the one, the one that makes me use the world Twitterpation...yeah, well not that anything is going to happen, or not that anything is not going to happen, but his feet are on the ground. when I was with him it was about having fun and being together and having the greatest, well the greatest everything while we were together. We were in no way Pillars for the eachother, we each stood tall on our own (him exceptionally tall, lol) why do I never use his name? I don't know, if you know who I am talking about you are special and if you don't well then it is fun to keep you wondering, ha! but the fact is that things are wonderful and it is a nice feeling to have that either way things will continue to be wonderful! oh and p.s. Adam is married as of yesterday or something like that. missy and I are having some glasses of wine to celebrate his marriage which also celebrates the most wonderful things in my life over the last 7 months, 5 of which being single! I always hated when my parents right when i was a kid, the most particular saying was "you cant see the forest while you are in trees" it of course pertained to a different boyfriend, but it stuck with me, and I will never lose sight of that saying again! (well one can hope at least):o) anyway the point of all this love was because of missy and jamie leaving... back to no friends here! but like i was telling someone recently I will have more time to read and finish my book that I am writing...thats right, i am and its good! (its a kid book, lol)
Going to Milan in a few days, for a few days, sort of excited for that, its been what, 2 months since I have been there, so I am due. Spending Christmas in Barbados so sunshine and no snowflake for me! But I will be dreaming of a white christmas for the rest of you! and well I will get my beautiful white sand...hehee.

breaking the ice and christmas lights

So things have been going well. I am just sort of getting back into my routine of things. I am a little bummed I suppose to be away from home again, just needing to readjust to everything. I am slowly realizing that a freaking ton has changed in my life in the last year. None of it is bad, but i think being bummed about being away from home has sort of got me thinking about all the things that have changed in my life. I will come back around soon, and I am day dreaming about my future and what I want to do with it...I have come to a conclusion about what it is I am going to do with my life for a career, at least one of the many careers I may wind up having but this is the one I am going for next...my wood shop. I have been thinking about it more and more and all the things that are associated with it and how I always think to myself about all the career choices I am interested in and when I think of what I want to do I always say something like "well i want to do that because I will either have the time or additional money to have a wood shop" why not have the wood shop be the career, then I definitely will have it...feels like i have said this before. I know it will take a few years in the making to get what I am exactly thinking of but, once I get all of my student loans paid off, I will be up for the challenge...so in 18 months (that is a absolutely reasonable goal!) I will be starting the real foundations of my wood shop. so that is what I have been daydreaming about lately. Meanwhile I have been running. My new running shoes are taking longer that I expected to break in. small irritations while I am running let me know that they just aren't ready for the big runs yet, but better and better each day. I have decided that next year I will run 3 marathons. I am going to do the London on April 26th and the Tri City in October again. and then a third one that I will not train for but do a walk/run and call it a marathon of opportunity based on where I may be at a given time and just dive in! I had a few days off on Sunday and Monday, they were well needed, just cause of jet lag and trying to fit back into my groove. I went to Starbucks and finished one book of mine, then on Monday to a different Starbucks to start a different book. I admired the Christmas lights and Christmas music and the crisp British air while walking to and from all of these places. it was really nice and peaceful. Trying not to be sad about being away from home for the Holidays, yet again, but instead super grateful for all the wonderful things that I have in my life, and super grateful for all the time I had at home with my family...just grateful! So all the walking was super peaceful and I loved it! I have gone to Chatt's a few times with Jamie and Missy, it has been so much fun, just sitting having a few glasses of wine and bullshitting. They are giving me romantic advice. ha! It's nice to feel like I have moved on from Adam, but I have someone else in mind that is driving me crazy. lol. Just cause I know that I have some being single to do, and he knows it to but I still feel twitterpated, and twitterpation and long distance well they don't mix! Time will put everything in its place though, and I am optimistic, as always! Work itself has been good today Jordan and I played "don't break the ice" and I was laughing hysterically because we did not have the little red man on the chair in the middle, instead we had a baby Jesus from a nativity scene, it was funny to hear Jordan say "don't let the baby Jesus fall" ahh, life is good.

just some pics from home

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wanting someone to talk to...

so I come home for six weeks, six amazing weeks! and people seem to have forgotten how to get a hold of me over here so I keep getting messages in the various places asking how i am doing and if this is the best way to get a hold of me... so....here is a refresher

skype-its free, and i have it on my phone so i can talk almost whenever...so long as I am not working, and even then I can almost always still chat. download it, get a name and search for my name....its easy but keep in mind 8 hour difference...i am ahead of you, when you wake up my day is nearly over

old school email- b_a_oliver@hotmail.com

facebook-cause well you can't really talk to people on myspace...just stalk them quitely...but

myspace-if all else fails

also i have my blog if you just want to check in but don't really give a damn about talking to me- www.iguessiwillrunamarathon.blogspot.com

so yeah, that was just cause i had a few identical messages asking and well I miss everyone and I hope you now know how to get a hold of me, cause well I hope that you all will. Things are going well here, I am still settling into my groove...missing home and friends and family, but less and less as I get back to my routine. My favorite thing since I have been back is running...I love the park that I run in here, it is so beautiful I just wow! It takes my breath away it is gorgeous! The weather has been pretty crisp cold but I have my new jacket and mittens from home so I am cozy warm! The kids have been amazing, they have grown up so much in the last 6 weeks! I have been having a bunch of fun with them! Today is my first day off since I have been home..whohoo...probably doing my normal thing...walk to starbucks and curl up with my diary and my book...then maybe hit chatt's tonight. we will see. I am still jetlagged so I keep going to bed at like 8 and waking up at 5...ehh i cant wait until that ends. probably will tonight...i hope. anyway blah blah blah, i am going to go eat breakfast!
xoxo
b